It's almost a month and a half since I started my new work as a daycare worker. It was very different working with kids. I was assigned in bigger toddler (between 24 months to 35 months). Honestly, I got so cultured shock. I had mixed emotions for a couple of weeks. My first 2 weeks was the toughest. I cried almost everyday after work. I'm having mixed emotions. I miss my friends in value village. I don't have friends yet in my new work. I just considered them as colleague.
Aside from that, I feel sad for the kids left in the daycare because they always look for their parents. Me as a parent, my heart hurts everytime a child ask for his mom. I remember my own Emma. She was so blessed that she stayed home with my husband and my mother-in-law. I have to comfort each child and assure them that their mommy or daddy will pick them up after work.
I complained almost everyday because of the difficulties at work. I talked to my parents. They advised me to pray. I talked to my aunt. She reminded me that I prayed for a new job and here is the new job and I still complain. And then, I started a new devotional about being thankful. I also prayed more and commit my new job to the Lord. And day by day, I still struggle. But the Lord changes my heart. The Lord gives me peace of mind. I accept my reality and tried to find peace with my situation.
I realized, the more I trust Him with my life, the more peaceful I am. And He surprised me with a blessing that I am not expecting. The Lord is good. He never will leave you nor forsake you. He will never let His child fall down in a very deep pit of mysery. He will pull you up in the right timing of your life.
Right now, I'm still struggling at work. But I am excited for the coming days; excited how the Lord will prepare the way for me.
